Yes, I love him, but I also worry about if our relationship could continue if he doesn't change anything about his employment.
I don't mind him wanting to stay in retail... it's the lack of a vision for the future I have an issue dealing with. How could he possibly believe that a salary like that could give him a future where he can dance, have a house, and have a family?
I will do what I can to convince him... although I do think I am overstepping my boundaries as a girlfriend, when technically we are still long distance and the time we have been together measures up to one month. The world knows of our relationship and I'm trying to make this work. But if his career path is stuck at this point... I don't know if I can continue this either.
I know he's not ever going to be an engineer or a doctor... and I thought if things were to get even more serious... we'll make it work somehow. My parents did... with a decent salary including benefits and my mom making money on the side. They were able to give the three of us a comfortable living with money and time to spare to go on vacations every year. Putting their daughter through college and funding her expensive hobby of ballroom dancing.
I am no longer a child and it's time to be realistic. I already have it easy with a house that is already in my name and a car that my family would be happy to sell me when the time comes, but I am free to use already. Yes, I am still a bit of a child... but the more I think about it, it feels like he had been stuck in time since the moment I met him... and is not ambitions enough to continue.
He is stubborn like other friends... and I do what I can to convince him and help him though do I have the right to? He has come to understand that not just with me, but if this career path keeps up, he will not be able to maintain a stable relationship which I agree with.
I'm not asking for marriage or a future with him... though if there is one, I would like him to at least convince me that we can be financially secure to some degree. I will still be making money with what I can do. I am lucky that with graphic design and art I already have plenty of options and examples that I can follow and I am ambitions enough with a support system that I can achieve these goals.
He needs to be ambitious as well or I feel as if things will need to end before it gets painful. I will still support him wholeheartedly as I also want what he wants, whether if we can do it together or not is another question.
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