Apparently he doesn't recognize me, or doesn't remember me... either way.
Well I don't blame him, but do I look that different from what I was before... I should put my hair up in a headband that day when I want to talk to him. (since that was 5th grade hairstyle). Would that be too weird? Do I look that different? O.O
Sure my hair has gotten shorter.... but do I look that different? I think I look more like I was in 5th grade now compared how I looked in 7th grade.
Well I already decided.
I want to talk to him as a friend. I don't see him (or try not to) see him in any "romantic" relationship. Well... I might... but I'm going to take the advice I gave Mar with her similar situation
"Just be friends. If it happens then it's natural, if it doesn't then it's probably not meant to be. Just let faith take you...
I feel better think about it this way. I'm still get kinda nervous around him (current me), but I think... his return kinda reminded me of the elementary school Tam.
The one that was alone and had no friends, so I had to be more active and talk to everyone. In elementary school, I hated leaving a regret later in life, so I always confessed when I DID like a guy... (every year =.=)
Tam so Fickle! (that's what caused the phobia later in life)
Well my heart has settled as well... to a decent amount
Today I was given a chance to talk to him after Japanese as I walked out the door. Apparently he had a class before that was... pretty close to the Jap class and that the group he sat with for lunch was near the classroom. I want to take this chance given to me!
I finally saw him. Of course he didn't really see me. But danggg it really is him O.O
He still has the same features from 5th grade... and still pretty tall. (Dang... still beat me from 5th grade, I haven't grown since...) HAHA of course... and his hair is slightly different, but I can tell it's still him.
But... I got worried as I peaked at him during lunch. In elementary school he would be able to laugh at anything and was a very cheerful and positive guy... but today he looked pretty down.
Yujin told me that he looked like a social outcast and lonely, which I don't get since... he apparently asked his own date out... 2 weeks before the dance. Apparently that's a sign of liking someone, so he should've at least talked to her.
Well... maybe he just transferred here recent, so he didn't get to know more people. If that's the case I'm willing to be his friend again :) haha
I'm going to take my next chance on Monday, if not I'm going to talk to him during Japanese Club (if I notice him and not be too preoccupied with what's going on in the club).
Haha... (highly possible since apparently I just walked pass him going to the bathroom on Tuesday) Mar might have to help me acknowledge his presence in the room. XD aha...
Well... I love Yujin right now. She's supportive right now. Mar is awesome too in the case, but she has her own problems to deal with as well and I don't want to trouble her with mine since I reached a resolution in less than a week. HAHA
Yujin was completely flattering me. During lunch I told her that Kouhei was right "behind" me kinda outside the Japanese room and she was so eager to check him out.
Haha to see if he's "worthy of me" (so much lying) though... I couldn't help to feel happy when she said that he's pretty good looking. It made me think "YES my judgment in guys isn't completely gullible"
Well I refuse to let this guy take over 2 of my posts so I'm going to talk about anime, friends, and afterschool stuff.
Well... apparently Mar is having problems. She has reached her conclusion, but I think she's taking her conclusion the wrong way.
She makes it sound like she's going to completely give up on Justin... as well as not helping him if he needs a friend to support him.
As I say, "Just be friends, if it works out then it's natural if not, then it might not be meant to be"
Haha... I just hate how it has to be the girl that does all the work... =.= UGHHH HAHA
Hm... well Yujin gave me a preview of my Christmas Card. She said she felt bad for not giving me one last year (being the only one...) and is giving me a super card for christmas.
I'm sooooo excited to see it. I looked at 2 of the (6? 8?) pages that were finished and was amazed at the cover. I LOVED IT! <3
I could almost cry tears on how touched I was... Haha well since it looked like me looking like Tsuna in Hyper mode.
My Nobu being in Hyper mode makes me sooo happy. I refused to read what she had so far so that most of it will be a surprise during christmas. I love surprises, even if I hate waiting for the surprise. HAHA I enjoy the unpredictable? hehe...
She said she wrote a random quote around a page but it just made me feel even happier.
"The generation that surpassed the rest and set an example for future generations...." I can't quite remember it that well, but reading it... I felt completely embedded in the group and that I was truly irreplaceable. I swear if I read it again during Christmas I might cry since I'm so emotional like so XD
I love it when Kimchi draws for me, since it's so pretty and cool and completely different from my style. Ahhhh~ I love her styleeee~ I always get annoyed when she says it's bad... =.=
Well... I love my Vongola 11th character, Sawada Nobuko!
I want to explain my reason for naming her this before I forget.
Well... Iemitsu and Tsunayoshi are both shogun of the Tokugawa era. So... I wanted to see the successor of Tsunayoshi (aka Tsuna). I looked it up and got the name Ienobu, the nephew of Tsunayoshi. Of course... it was a boy name so I took the "Nobu" part and added "Ko" to make it sound more fem. So... My character Nobuko will the be niece of Tsuna (10th Vongola).
Vongola Undecimo! Sawada Nobuko! (do I need an Italian name O.O?) NAHHH!
Well... thanks to Yujin I have an idea myself...
I found this quote: "Chosen ones who have received one of the Vongola rings. Rings that were delivered to people who are worthy of protecting the next Vongola boss Sawada Nobuko." (adding my character's name of course) and I'm going to draw individual pictures.
It's going to be awesome!
Well I have a busy weekend coming up >.< so wish me luck. I'll try to talk about it as the week goes by. Like on Sunday during chinese school or something. XD While Sandra peeks over my shoulder.
Well I got a Chinese test to... so wish me luck!
Japanese Food tomorrow for Dinner! Me ish sooo excited! :3 See ya!
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