I've always loved rping, since the first moments it had been introduced to me. Thinking of new characters and personalities, drawing them out, and acting them out. I loved this process. No matter who I rped with, I'd always loved rping with my closest friend at the time. YKC...
Since Loraurel, I've changed. The addition of Lorence into my personality gave me more confidence to act on a whim and I could feel myself more and more dependent on this daily sending and receiving replies.
When YKC and I became less close, and went our separate way, I always thought that these two characters could still link us since we both loved them with all our lives.
Freshman year was fine, I could tell she still wanted this, and so did I... but then... the year after... I moved to start a new era and chapter of my life. To do something that not everyone usually experiences and make my life more interesting and exciting. Suddenly... once I arrived, she stopped. Just like that...
Was she looking for a chance to stop this connection with this time difference.
Is she really just busy and can't find the time to reply. (But then... that just means she doesn't care enough to make time.
Or does she suddenly find this childish and meaning-less.
Perhaps she wants to break this connection for good and that she really did just HATE me all this time....
Either way. I'm upset with all the time and love I've invested into Loraurel. And I can't seem to find myself to stop regardless of how upset I am and how I wish to keep myself from this pain....
I'm sad... and disappointed. And I miss our connection and relationship, since she's conveyed to me vaguely that she officially wants nothing to do with me...
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