Just Wanted to Talk

I've given up already... on any normal friendship between us.

Of course I still wish for it... but of course... my wish cannot decide everything.

I'm happy that at least she's happier now.
But I've stopped one thing that may start to get in the way of both our happiness.

I've stopped Loraurel until we can talk it out.
I need to talk it out...
I don't want to be hated by her... I really don't. I want to accept each other at least and maybe still stay in contact.

Loraurel is a strong bond, one that will hurt me greatly if it is broken.
Just the thought of this temporary pause is already hurting me... and distracting my thoughts.

I know I've made mistakes... and that I'm also selfish.
I may have gotten a bit too confident in my time this year... and this might have cost me my most important friendship.

I understand that people change... and I don't regret my own change (if I had any). It's time to slowly heal wounds and if possible save what was broken.

I want to continue RPing... I do... I miss it. I won't be able to last long... but we will see.