Today was my dear hilary's birthday :) I certain hoped it was a good day to the end. I used my 11:11 wish last night in hopes that hilary will be happy today.
I prepared a "sweet 16" balloon for her birthday, even though tomorrow's going to rain. I was going to complete my promise of bring a balloon for her birthday.
Indeed... I was not the only one who brought a balloon for hilary, Margret also got her one. I was surprised and somewhat relieved since the balloon Margret got was one that I was considering yesterday.
My present for Hilary was pathetic compared to the presents that were given today. I had to keep reminding myself that that was only a small part of it. Though... at home... there is a part I cannot find for my life .___. I have no idea were it went...
So... for the starter present I gave hilary the Hanbok drawing that I was working so frantically on, the formal pair drawing, and the blue coach clutch I promised.
I still have a big of a surprised on my hands. :D
So continuing on... I do hope she had a good birthday. I put myself on my best behavior when talking to her, hoping not to anger, sadden, or ashamed her.
Today though... I realized how much Hilary is loved by everyone. I'm SO not saying she isn't just... lately I've been seeing how negative Hilary is being and how... I feel like I can be a little more deserving to be negative. Today... I learned from Mar that she woke up at 5 am to call Hilary to say Happy Birthday because thats when she was born.
I kind of went into shock. It's not bad... you could say I was jealous. I know I am someone who likes attention, but expects it to come to me. But... idk... lately it's been making me think of my birthday last year.
Continuing on, I worked extra hard on the picture... and it seemed like almost nothing compared to everything else. It was suppose to be my secret surprise weapon... but it failed me.
This is probably the first present yujin hasn't been late to bring. .... nough said...
Margret came up with this amazing card that was as tall as hilary. It was a creative idea... but it finally hit me...
I was talking to Hil once about how I am disappointed that whenever I work so hard on a present, it just gets glanced at and put aside...
PLEASE don't get me wrong... I am very happy for Hilary :o you can say I'm just very jealous that even on my birthdays I can't get anything close to that.
The party is still undecided...
-sigh- I don't feel like talking about my negative feelings today... maybe some other time. It's getting late for me. Good night.
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