So today was the Boba sale and I volunteered to drive since apparently the group had no one else available to drive, so I volunteered my mom to help me out.
Today was just for experience's sake and to see how Felica carried out the boba sale (so they couldn't use this as something I can't do when I do run for president again)
So... I had quite a few problems with the way they did things... but there's always time for them to improve for them. The process was a little bumpy with the people not know that the Boba was due today... and the cups having problems as well... and... the store being closed when we were there.
They could've improved a lot... but I guess today was the first time Felica did it alone without the help of the former Club Prez and Vice. Well I'm sure she'll do much better, so I'll see next time and not bash her on the internet.
Well... when I was Cafe Tapioca... I was talking to Felica. And suddenly the name Kouhei came up. I suddenly went into shock.
Me: Kouhei?! He... came back?!
Felica: Huh? Came back? What do you mean?
Me: oh... well it's probably not him...
Felica: Wha? Who?
Me: oh... just I knew someone in 5th grade that was name Kouhei... and we were friends and all... do you know his last name?
Felica: Uh... Narron? N - A - R? something like that
Me: 0///0 GASP! -turns away- omg....
Felica: is it him?
Me: yeah... haha... weird... I'm so surprised...
Felica: Yeah... he's a Junior... in AP japanese...
Me: Oh... haha... interesting... -still in shock-
thoughts: Junior?!
Felica: yeah... he asked Mimi to Homecoming
Me: Ahhh~ I see... who's Mimi? -smiles- haha I don't know anyone
Felica: oh... just a friend... I know a lot of people apparently just not well...
Me: Haha... ^^; I see...
The conversation went on... but I can't remember that well since my mind was in a blur after that...
The weird part was we were talking about half asians and how they usually look more white than asian... and I was talking about Kouhei when I said I knew a half asian that looked more Asian...
Quite embarrassing...
I'm in such a shock though... I knew I HAD to talk to my friends since my feelings just overwhelmed as well as disappointed.
First one to know was of course Mar since she was the first to know about him... the Yujin since our promise in 8th grade revealed everything.
I was in such a shock and tried my best to maintain my composure. My mind was screaming for the rest of the day...
I wanted to talk to Marisa and Yujin about it for so long... but there was never the right time and place to do so.
The weird parts are that I thought about this once...
I had a dream about him once... coming back and I talked to him and eventually confessed to him. But... I was rejected since there was some type of obstacle there.
I also wrote in another post here once in "The Past Returns" when I talked about Willie adding me on facebook. I wrote:
Indeed... I seriously hope this isn't a sign that the past WILL return. But then that's not too bad either since then I might see Kouhei again. HAHA... weird of me.
Who knew it would actually... >.< AHHHHH~
Bu... well no anime today since I'm going in a drama overflow. I think it's my drama queen side making a big deal again... So I'll try not to go too far. =.=
UGH... I feel like the mixture of Mar, Elora, and Hilary's feelings all at once:
Mar: the decision to keep going or give up
Elora: liking and torn between two people
Hilary: Remember the past with the person
TT^TT I'm such a drama queen I hate itttt~
I would've been better of not knowing me came back. Now it's official that I should give up immediately... I'll try to talk to him as a friend... old childhood friend and see if he remembers me.
What kinda hurt was when Felica said, "yeahh he probably doesn't remember you"
But she might be right. Well I'll see if I can talk to him... what do I say though
"Heyyy Kouhei... I'm Tammy! Remember me from 5th grade? We were friends then... Ms.Sucssle's class! I sat in front of you and we'd always talk that the teacher got mad? Remember? Haha"
Just like that? O.O Haha actually I just might do that... between lunch and 5th period. Just go into AP Japanese... oh... that would be weird too... since his homecoming date is in the same class... and they're probably together...
Will fate give us a chance to be friends?
Haha... TAM... just keep chanting... "It will never happen, it will never happen, don't think about it! friends... friends.."
What I'm sad is that I have a phobia of guys... and it started in 5th grade... after he moved away. I unknowingly declared to stay away from guys... not knowing in high school that's something weird... and it was basically has fault... (can't really blame him)
-ugh... now I can NEVER finish Glass Moon... just too weird...
Cheng's stay single forever! remember!! D<
I will stop ranting because the scroll bar has gotten really small... I'll probably rant about it tomorrow... when I'm not so busy with only 2 hours left to finish hw before tutor O.O SEE YA!
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