Hey Blogger,
I think my blog is done with fluffy boy stuff. I realized that I'm feeling some real life pressures these days. After some reflection during the summer with my beloved mother, I realized that I want my me time.
I don't want to be in a relationship anymore since I find that I'm not in love with my dance partner anymore. I don't feel the romantic attraction that I'd felt before I went home for the summer. And what we have isn't the romantic attraction that I want to have when being in a relationship. I'm thinking that I'm not looking for a relationship anymore. I just want some me time.
Currently a junior in university, I really want to just focus on my school and improving my skill sets to make myself a better candidate when going out into society. These few years I've haven't felt like I've improved as a designer, and now that I've finally found a path that I'd like to go down for my future career. I really want to go into fashion and work as an alterations assistant at Vera Wang Bridals if that internship is available next year. It just sounds absolutely amazing and I hope that they'd take me.
Sometimes I worry about not getting a chance at the career I want. But I suppose one just has to get use to be rejected a few times before getting what they want without being battered up too much.
I'm happy with my life without being "in a relationship". I have great friends, a family that loves me, and opportunities of a lifetime. I'm excited and nervous about the future and I know that this year when I go home, I won't be the same person as I was before.
