I went to the movies with a friend today... and talked to that friend about something I didn't think would come up again.
I confess... during Fanime2012, I did make some bad decisions that were selfish and I feel guilt for them to this day when I remember them.
Though I probably should confess what I did, I do not want to think about what I did...
But hearing what someone now thinks of me because of those bad decisions... I now worry if that is what will come be for me for the rest of my life...
People who have once liked me suddenly turning around and hating me due to the mistakes I make throughout life...
I have no friends from my elementary time... and none from my middle school part of life.
I've managed to keep a few from high school who accept me... or so I think they do...
A previous group of friends for the majority of high school who have also accepted me now shun me... and I worry that it will happen to me again...
Or perhaps it wasn't their rejection of me... or my rejection of them... Either way. I know I'm a horrible person if I've gone through so much pain.
It must be karma...
This is why I have decided to leave for Taiwan... before the tides have turned in my college life as well. But after Taiwan... where else am I to go?...
